It's Been A Few!

It has been a few months since my last post. I was going through a lot around that time. I didn't know that there was so much in the world. Stuff I never knew about. I guess life can be a funny thing.

I have been doing some writing still. I've been writing all over the place. I keep a journal and it's pretty fun. Pretty insightful too. I also wrote a book. It's just a small 16 or17 page book. It's about nutrition and depression. I had fun writing it. I'm not sure if it will ever sell. But I did have fun writing it.

We're getting ready for school and stuff like that too. I hope it will be a good year for us who knows the future though. Well I got something going on now. I know this is a short post. I will write more later.


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about life

hi everyone.



i know it's been a reeally long time since my last post. sorry all,, just been going through a lot of personal stuff. yes, God and Jesus is still there for me and all. I haven't been well for a long time and I would read the Bible off and on through out the years, just trying to find out what everything is about, why people in my life wouldn't tell me what i really needed to know, like what was happening to me, gosh anything. I tried talking to my brother and he was trying to find out what I knew and I just said nope! I'm not saying anything, if no one want's to tell me what I really needed to know why should I say anything to anyone what I know for sure. Besides if I did open my mouth and say this and that they really wouldn't hear what I am saying, they just wouldn't know what i mean about things. No they would not understand. I guess that is because they haven't been where I was, they just didn't experience the stuff i been through. I think God puts stuff to you because...ok... gives you a life to live because He wants you to i guess express stuff and tell stuff...the way He shows you and tells you. I guess what I am trying to say is that God wants you to live your life but He wants you to maybe show people what you know about Him. I know all that sounds kind of crazy or what ever, i just don't know how else to say it. I guess when I do more writing get more experience it will come easier. Oh yes! back to the Bible, I read it all the way through and Ohhhhhhweee! Some parts really tripped me out! I mean they really had it awesome, specally when Jesus was with them. It was just so hard for them to believe what was happening. I just thought at the time....if we all lived back in the day with them we all would be doing the same thing they all did. I mean you got to think about it, they didn't have the Bible written down for them....but they did have prophets. Don't mean to sound like I'm off the chain and all but by just reading the Bible all the way through and understanding some of It you just begin to see stuff you never saw before and you begin to understand a lot more about life and it's really great. Guess you all can tell I've been through a lot.   It's all right though, I had to find out about life some way or another. God tells you stufff in all kinds of ways. Guess sometimes it all was so much to take, so much about life came at me like all at once and I just didn't know how or what to do about it. I tried talking to family about it all and no one understood. guess it's a reeallll personal thing one has to go through. yep   just between you and God. Don't worry people, I'm not on anything like drugs and all of that. I don't get high or curse and do awful stuff. I don't live on the wild side or am a thrill seeker and do all of those adult things...wink wink...you know b...y call and opp all of that. Really I just want to do the right thing, I need to do the right thing, just crave to do the right thing. I need to admit, i am human and though I am a Christian I'm not perfect. I still fear this and that, am really quite shy and a little insecure about me and the future and how to live out life. I use to be bold and brave and very outspoken about this and that and my sister said I would say anything. I was really a social butterfly when I was in highschool, had lots of friends. Well not so much anymore. I'm somewhat of an introvert, a thinker--deep thinker and really quite humbled by what I've been through. Yep what happened in the past knocked me on my...you know what....for a couple of decades. Thank You Jesus, Thank You God! I know that a lot of people think of tramatic experiences and stuff as really awful and bad or terrible or whatever but they have a purpose, there is a reason why things happen the way they do. I believe when your heart is right with God and you put your faith and trust in His Son Jesus you can just about go through anything anyone throws at you...ok anything. When you find all that out things get better, life gets better and you just heal. It's not that everything gets easy or will be easy but you find that you can cope with people and issues in a very healthy way. I know that all of this may sound a little weird or strange to a lot of people, or it may sound as if I'm rambleing and not making any sense. I just needed to write what is on my mind, a little about my life--no matter how personal. I like to think out loud in a really introverted way i guess. Well thanks for reading.


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